Me,My Life & I

My friend referred to the ITV programme as this earlier.
It made me laugh.
Even though I disagree and think some of the acts are quite good,although there's too many singers in it.
Random and pointless post.
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I have never been so relieved in my life.Exams are over!No more stress! And what's more,the last one,media studies,went really well!I feel mediumish about my results,but don't have to worry about that until August so yay!

It's so good to know that I don't have to spend any more days revising.Good to know that I can just relax all weekend doing absolutely nothing thats even remotely school orientated.

And what's more,there's only six days until I'm off to Florida!

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May has gone by so slowly.I think that's because I've,for the majority of the month,been lazing around my house *cough*revising*cough-cough*.I find not being in school actually tends to get boring pretty quickly.Exams haven't gone as well as I'd have liked them to,though thats my own fault.For every single exam I've done I've put in absolute minimum effort so I think thats gonna show in my results.Only got one more to go - Media Studies - on Friday and then it's all over.I'm not typing this at the very end of the month because I'm not gonna have time to do it on Friday.So in general,May has been pretty boring.A few good days out with friends etc and my mum took me on rather an AMAZING shopping trip on Friday just passed by aside from that,my May was uneventful.

Films

I seen two in the cinema this month!Yes,at last, the 'film fan' has managed to get back to that place she calls home.I rented a couple which I enjoyed.And I also bought a few,one of which I was VERY excited about - more about that in a sec.

So,cinema:

Forgetting Sarah Marshall - Loved it.See my review for more on that. Perhaps it was just because me and my friends had been desperate to see it ever since we heard the line in the trailer 'You sound like you're from London' [don't even ask why we found that so hilarious].Or perhaps it was because it starred Russell Brand?Or maybe,just maybe,the reason I loved this film was because I buggered off to see it on a night I was meant to be revising?I found it hilarious from start to finish.Was very happy it didn't rely on all that 'lets see how rude and vulgar we can be' stuff that Superbad relied on to get laughs.Yep so fantastic film.

What Happens In Vegas - Got to go see this one for free,which I was happy about .Thought it was ok,though was glad I didn't pay to go see it.I loved the best friends of the main couple - Hater and Tipper.Their scenes together were my favourite in the entire movie.I think it was a fairly good idea that could have been executed better.

Ok so dvds.I rented four this month.

This Is England - We went to rent Trainspotting [don't ask why I've not bought it already lol] and the dvd shop revealed that they only had one copy [wtf!?] and so we rented this little work of art instead.Very good and I think it did live up to its claim of being the best British film since Trainspotting.Controversial,hard hitting and honest.Quite accusatory,but I liked that about it.Highlighting the problems of racial and gang violence,I thought it addressed some real issues that,although this film was set in the 80's,are still relevant today,if not as predominant as they used to be.I thought young Thomas Turgoose was great as the troubled twelve year old boy in search of friendship and a father figure and the character of Combo,played by Stephen Graham,was hard enough to rival Robert Carlyle's Begbie in Trainspotting.So yep,loved this one.

Trainspotting - Me and my mum had a craving to watch this and since I,the main dvd collector of the household,have not yet acquired it [not for want of trying,they've discontinued it until next March when they're re-releasing another 'special' edition] we had to go rent it.As mentioned above,when we first went to get it the dvd shop didn't have it so we had to wait a night [during which we rented This Is England] and then get it.I've not watched this film in a while and it was the first time watching it with my mum.It still creeps me out watching the baby crawl along the ceiling when Renton's going cold turkey.Bleugh.

Hallam Foe - Set in Edinburgh,after our previous night's encounter with Trainspotting, my mum and I thought this would be a nice,if somewhat milder,continuation of a bit of a theme.I was looking forward to seeing this but I can't say it lived up to my expectations.It was worth seeing,but I just didn't really enjoy it as much as I thought I would.Jamie Bell was great though.

Death Proof - Quentin Tarantino's half of his and Robert Rodriguez's Grindhouse homage.I've not seen Rodriguez's film and I'm not familiar with Grindhouse films but if Deathproof is anything to go buy I'll soon be getting pretty familiar with them.As expected of a Tarantino there's strong female characters [a lack of Uma Thurman was refreshing,not that I have anything against her,I think she's great,it was just nice not to see her in this film.] and the casting of Zoe Bell as herself was a great decision.Also,as typical of his films,Tarantino appeared in a cameo role.As did acclaimed horror director Eli Roth,which was cool.The two groups of girls were great,though I much preferred the second set because they just had much better chemistry and played off each other so well.Script was great,and hilarious at some points.Some critics have knocked this film for having too much talk,but I thought it's what made it,and,as far as I'm aware,lots of dialogue was conventional of Grindhouse cinema?Also,Quentin Tarantino often has speechy scripts so it didn't really feel out of place coming from the perspective I was [that of an avid Tarantino fan.]One of my favourite things about this film though was the soundtrack.'Down In Mexico' was stuck in my head for days after watching.'Hold Tight' is my new favourite song.And 'Chick Habit',well I already loved it,but it was great to see it this film.Oh and slight heads up to Kill Bill when one of the girls phone's rings and her ring tone is that song that Elle Driver whistles in Kill Bill I'm ranting now.5 Star Film.

I also bought three dvds this month.

The Matrix - Two disc edition for a pound!Not my favourite ever film but I felt it was one that had to be added to my collection.And for a pound,who wouldn't?

Beetlejuice - Again with the Tim Burton.I'm slowly but surely building up quite a collection of his work.I've always loved this film and after not seeing it for a few years,I was happy to buy it for three pounds and relive one of my favourite Burton films.

Sweeney Todd:The Demon Barber of Fleet Street - After much begging and pleading with my mother,she finally agreed to get me the two disc edition last Friday.I'd seen it before,but it was a bad quality copy and so when I got this it was great to watch it on the big telly in all it's grisly glory.Told ya I was building up my stash of Burton films lol.Although I am a HUGE fan of Johnny Depp,I can't help feeling Helena Bonham Carter out-shone him in this.No doubt he was excellent at capturing Sweeney's dark,revengeful character but Carter was just plain fantastic.Her singing didn't annoy me like I thought it would and her comic timing was great.As per usual great use has been made of costume and set and a dark,eerie Victorian London has been captured in true Tim Burton style.Special features disc was also great,giving a good insight into the origins of the demon barber.My favourite purchase this month by far.

Tv

Lost - Absoloutely mind blowing.I simply cannot wait for this week's finale!I sense death,reveals and big plot twists are a'coming!
Desperate Housewives - Continues to be a really strong season.The latest episode [tornado one] was exceptionally good.I felt so sorry for Lynette at the end
The Big Bang Theory - Deserves a mention just because it continues to cheer me up every Thursday evening.
Heroes - Nowhere near as good as season one,much slower paced.But still interesting.How much are Matt and Mohinder like a little married couple lol?

Kelly's Quotability

After many months of waiting,she's done it!My friend Kelly's made it into the quotability,with her very own section no less!Kelly earlier this month faced one of her biggest fears and stood up on stage for the first time and spoke.She was really scared about it and I was,and still am,so proud of her for doing it.Go You!So here's some of her best bits

Kelly:I try my hardest to do what God wants to do, and yeh I muck up a lot, but that’s the great thing about God, that he doesn’t think “she mucked up, I won’t use her anymore…” he keeps giving me opportunities to live for him and do what He wants me to do. - love this because it,for me,sums up God exactly.He doesn't just dump you if you make mistakes,He keeps using you and gently guides you.

Kelly:One of the great things about God is that he doesn’t lie - indeed And I'm pretty happy that He doesn't.He kindly lets you know when there's something that you need to change or when you're going the wrong way.

Kelly:It’s still hard and scary but I know he is right here with me. - Pretty much sums up what I continuously try to drum into my head lol

And finally [on the Kelly section anyways]:

Kelly:My life isn’t just mine it’s His. - And I think you more than proved that dear when you got up on that stage.Not that it needed proving,but you know.I admire you so much for doing it.I'm not sure if when God calls me to do something I'm as terrified of as you were/are with the stage I'd be able to do it as well as you did.You're pretty much inspiring dear

Other Quotablilty

There's quite a few things to quote this month so bear with me.

Jamie:Blocka-Chocka Fringe

Kirsty:Kirsty's orgasming over the jolly-ranchers.

Gabrielle[Desperate Housewives]:Carlos,if you are taking me somewhere I don't need a boa,I don't want to go!

Crazy Adam-Obsessed Lady[Desperate Housewives]: Did you see her spit at me?
Bree:Yes,that was unfortunate.

Sawyer[Lost]: Hold up!You don't get to die alone. [God knows why this made it in,all I know it was saved in my phone for this very purpose so I must have for some reason at the time enjoyed it]

Ben[Lost]:How many times do I have to tell you John,I always have a plan [sinister much?]

Ben[Lost]:Destiny,John,is a fickle bitch!

Carmen Reyes(Hurley's Mum)[Lost]:Jesus Christ is not a weapon. [Quite right ]

Sawyer[Lost]::Hugo's with Ben.
Jack:Son of a Bitch! [Role reversal much!?]

Wolowitz[The Big Bang Theory]: You can't just call dibs!
Koothrappali:I can, and I did. Look up dibs in Wikipedia. [This had me laughing for so long]

Sheldon[The Big Band Theory]:Oh I never joke when it comes to vertigo

Waiter[Sex and The City]: Good,Great,Excellent!

Samantha[Sex and The City]:Friar Fuck. [This had me in stitches for hours after I watched the episode with Kirsty.I don't know why,it was just the way she came out with it I suppose]

One of the girls from Sex and the City,can't remember who: Miss Motherfucker!Why have you not returned my last two hundred calls!?

Carrie[Sex and The City]:Dolce and Gabanna picked me?
Fashion Show Producer:Yes fuckette,and they are very picky Italians.

Sweeney Todd[Johnny Depp in Sweeney Todd]: What is this?...Smells Like piss...Looks like piss...This is piss. [The looks on his face and Mrs Lovett's lines in between...lol]

Matthew[Forgetting Sarah Marshall]:What did you think of my demo,did you get it?
Aldous:I was gonna listen to that but then I just,um,carried on living my life.

Surfing Instructor[Forgetting Sarah Marshall:When life gives you lemons you just say 'Fuck the Lemons!' and bail. [LOL]

Surfing Instructor[Forgetting Sarah Marshall]:If you get bitten by a shark you're not just going to give up surfing are you?
Peter:....yeah,probably.

Surfing Instructor[Forgetting Sarah Marshall]:You sound like you're from London!

And finally (I did warn you there was a lot ):

Lyrics for 'I Want An Alien For Christmas ' by Fountains of Wayne:

This year for Christmas
There's something I'd really like
So if you're up there somewhere Santa
Please don't bring me another bike
I don't need any ugly sweaters
And I don't play much basketball
But theres something kinda special
That I want most of all...

I want an alien for Christmas
Bring me an alien this year
I want a little green guy
About three feet high
With seventeen eyes
Who knows how to fly
I want an alien for Christmas this year

He can live in the bath tub
So don't worry about a thing
And Ill take him out for walks
When it gets nicer in the spring
Ill always keep him company
Hell never be alone
And we can hang around the house all day
And watch the twilight zone

I want an alien for Christmas
Bring me an alien this year
I want a little green guy
About three feet high
With seventeen eyes
Who knows how to fly
I want an alien for Christmas this year

I want an alien for Christmas
Bring me an alien this year
I want a little green guy
About three feet high
With seventeen eyes
Who knows how to fly
I want an alien for Christmas this year
I want an alien for Christmas this year

Overview

Apologies about the HUGENESS of this round up.Looking back,this month wasn't actually as boring as I first thought it was when starting this post.A lot of quotes for the quotability section.A lot of good films seen.And thank goodness - exams are almost over!Only a little over a week and I'll be in Florida!Be Jealous!

Until Next Time

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I want to type.
I don't know what,I'll just see what comes out.
So...
My life at the moment is pretty average.
School's going ok,well then again,I've not actually been in school except for exam days for near on a month now so that comment probably wouldn't otherwise be true.
Getting on pretty well with my mum.Thought things were going just as well with my dad but then that kinda fell apart a bit today.Maybe he just had a bad day,but he snapped at me.And I got a fright.And it pissed me off.Not him snapping,me getting the fright.Strange that.
Me and my brother still argue as much as usual.Need to resolve that little problem as I think I may be emotionally damaging him,over dramatic as that may sound.
I bought dvds again this week Hadn't bought any since the easter holidays and was suffering from serious withdrawal symptoms.Honestly,I was like a junkie looking for a fix.
Talking of junkies,it was the anniversary of auntie's,well i say auntie,not that she was ever anything even closely resembling that to me,more just the stupid bint that got her teeth into my uncle,anyway,it was the anniversary of her death this week.Strangely enough,my uncle's engagement to his new girlfriend fell apart this week too.Not good.I really liked her.She's Irish.
So really,life on the homefront could overall be a bit better.
Friends on the other hand,are fantastic.
Spending more time with one group of them over exam leave has been great.I find that just being in their company lifts my mood on days when I'm feeling rubbish.
I'm missing the company of my other group of friends though.Now I only see them once a week instead of twice and I dunno,I know it's not that big of a difference,but it's just really getting to me.I think it's because with them I can talk about my faith and stuff,and I'm feeling kinda weird about my faith presently,I've no idea what God's actually telling me a the moment.I know I could talk to them about it at any time,but it just feels like it would be easier to do it if we were still meeting for our regular once a week thing.I'm pretty sad that we're not gonna be doing that for a while now.At the time when we decided to not meet up over the summer it felt like a good idea because last year we met over the summer I think and we got kinda messed up as a group as a result of spending too much time together I think.So yeah,friends are great on one hand,but I'm missing some on the other,even if I am talking to them all the time on msn.
This might come out really big headed but bear with me.I really can't wait for my life to 'begin' so to speak because I really feel like I'm gonna make something of myself,and I'm looking forward to that.That might sound stupid,and as if I'm just setting myself up for disapointment.But I am really determined to make it in what I want to do.I don't mean get into making huge blockbuster films,just making any kind of movie or tv show will fulfill my biggest dream and I can see me doing it.Everything about that industry appeals to me.Also,I heard someone famous talking once,can't remember who it was,and they said that they always felt they were going to make it.They said that sounded arrogant but they'd just never felt any other way and that had given them the determination to chase their dreams.So yeah,mines are becoming bigger and bigger.I am intent on making films and LA seems to be calling me.All my friends are always talking about their dreams and it feels to me as though that gives me
liscense to dream even bigger,that makes no sense,but to me it does.
Although I have great friends and family around me,I feel lonely.Maybe I want a boyfriend?It feels as though all the guys just see my as their friend,never could be anything more.Not that any of them at school really appeal to me so I'm kinda glad it's that way.I really need to start making friends outside school and that.Widen my options so to speak.Unders is always an option but there they're always taken,arseholes or gay so that poses a bit of a problem.Not to mention they're always just looking for the one's wandering around in their bras,throwing themselves all over the place.See me doing that just to grab a bit of male attention,I hardly think so.I'll stay single if thats what it takes thanks.
Hmm,what to say.
When I start stuggling for words,thats a time to stop I think.
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I finished my first fan video yesterday.I'm pretty proud of it considering I made it on the VERY old version of Windows Movie Maker.Quality's not great but its watchable.

Tell me what you think:

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OK so my last post about acting and all that got me thinking about just how much I do actually cover up and only let out when I'm in the skin of an imagined character.

The realisation that I hide my true feelings quite a lot disturbed me.

I'm getting fed up of living with this secret [alopecia]. I know everyone has their burdens to bear so I'm not going down give-me-sympathy-lane here but I'm just so tired of getting up every morning and going out wearing this mask.I've taken more and more to not bothering to try and hide my patchy head when I'm in the company of friends,after all,they're my friends,it shouldn't really bother them.I know it's not particularly pleasant to look at and I'm aware that it probably puts them in a bit of an uncomfortable situation if I'm sitting there,bald patches on display.

I'm starting to wonder if maybe it would be easier to just come out with it?It's not thaaat big a deal.Well,on one hand,it is.But on the other,its only appearance.And when I'm covered up,you can't really tell there's anything different about me.
I would just like to be able to have the freedom to move my head about without the worry of people discovering my secret,I'd be able to relax and know that people know what it is.

I don't know what my big thing about people knowing about it is,all I know that since I found out about it,the first priority for me has always been covering it up.

Maybe I'm disgusted by it? But I'm not because recently I've been feeling a lot better about the whole situation.

It's just getting to me having to live behind a mask and keep this big secret basically all to myself.

Living behind a mask is hard work,what do you's say to me taking it off?

Just felt like getting this little bit of me out in the open.

I love to act.In fact,when I'm acting,I don't feel like I'm acting,it's more like I'm letting parts of the real me out for a stretch instead of staying all bottled up and refined like I usually do.

When I'm on the stage, as cliched as this may sound, the rest of my life's worries just melt away and I feel like I could be anyone, do anything and achieve any of my dreams whilst I'm in the shoes of whatever character I might happen to be playing.

When I step into the spotlight I breath a sigh of relief in the knowledge that I'm about to do something that comes naturally to me,that I enjoy,and that makes me feel really good about myself.

I don't think some people understand the freedoms that the stage brings.You can be an apparently quiet person in real life but when you step into the shoes of another person and stride across the stage with seemingly put on confidence,you can let out that little part of yourself that is actually that confident.If you're a very 'proper' and refined person in your own life, you can step out onto that stage and get away with murder and behave badly,becoming the outrageous person that you would never be expected to be in real life.

Being another person,even if it is only for a very short while,is fantastic.You don't have to stick to any of the restrictions that society has put on you,you can just let go and be anyone you want to be,voicing your true feelings through the guise of someone else.

It annoys my friends that I talk about acting and drama so much,but I only talk about it so much because it's one of the only times I can forget about the worries that my real life has and just become the complete opposite of what I am and what I am expected to be,which sometimes,I'd really really like to actually be.I only talk about it so much because I have a passion for acting that I don't think they understand fully so I try and make them understand,which I suppose must come across as me trying to force my hobbies down their throats.

Really,I love acting so much because to me,acting is not putting on a show,it's letting stuff out behind a mask.

Ok so here's my strike off list of exams. They'll all be taking place over the next month and I'll be scoring them off as I go along.

English Writing - Went ok.Could have done better I think.
English Reading - General - Went well
English Reading - Credit - Went quite well.Pretty hard though so hopefully they'll bring the pass mark down from 37 out of 50 to a more achievable 30
Admin - General - Went well.Think I've only dropped a maximum of ten points.
Admin - Credit - Slightly less difficult than I thought it was going to be,but still pretty hard in some parts.Think I done well though
Maths Non Calculator - General - Quite hard,but do-able.
Maths Calculator - General - Easyish
Maths Non Calculator - Credit - complete disaster
Maths Calculator - Credit - as above
French Listening - General - found this quite hard actually
French Reading - General - not a problem
French Listening - Credit - found this easier than the general
French Reading - Credit - as with the general,this was never gonna be a problem.find it easier than reading in english lol
Drama - General - surprisingly hard
Drama - Credit - surprisingly easy
History - General - Went average-ish
History - Credit - Could have went better but I think I still done pretty well
Biology - General - Rather easy,I must say.And I was glad of it having done not that much revision.Well I did do quite a lot of revision but I dunno,just not in much depth
Biology - Credit - Not as hard as I thought it was going to be.But I think I've lost a few marks.Ah well.Only one more to go!
Media - Int 2 - Went so much better than I thought it was going to.Got both my essays finished and I think I done really well.That's it!They're all over.Now I just have to wait for the results :$

Ok so unforgettable is perhaps a bit of an overstatement.But it was certainly good.

I am not a fan of Jason Segal, or Kristen Bell, and went to see this purely and unashamedly on the grounds that my favourite comedian, Russel Brand had a role.Much for the same reason I went to see St. Trinians [which I also,coincidently,enjoyed greatly.]Well perhaps not purely on the grounds that Brand starred, it was made by the people who made Knocked Up,which was one of my favourite of last year's movies.

Anyway.

I like the script. Kept me laughing all the way through.Although I don't think the characters had much depth to them,they were still believable.

Wasn't filmed in any particularly special way,but I do remember liking the fact that there was always little laughable things going on the background of the frame.

The acting was pretty average, or maybe I'm just being bias against two actors that I don't particularly like? I enjoyed Russel Brand's performance,but then again, I'd probably would have enjoyed it regardless of what he was doing.

Ok so I can't actually think of anything else to justify why I enjoyed this film.Infact,looking at what I've written above,I've not explained very well why I liked it at all.I'm just going to put it down to the hilarious script.

And on that note,I'll leave you with a few of my favourite quotes from the movie:

Matthew :What did you think of my demo,did you get it?
Aldous :I was gonna listen to that,but then,um,I just carried on living my life.

Surfing Instructor: Oh come on..the weather outside is weather...

Surfing Instructor: When life gives you lemons,you just say 'Fuck The Lemons' and bail

Surfing Instructor:If you get bitten by a shark,you're not just going to give up surfing are you?
Peter: ...yeah,probably

Aldous :Could you get it out please Mr Hotel Man, I'm really losing a lot of blood here. [thats not the exact quote but it wasn't on IMDB and I couldn't find it anywhere]

And of course:

Surfing Instructor : You sound like you're from London! [ok maybe's that's only hilarious to me and my friends who have laughed about it since the trailers for this film came out.]

So there we have it.
Until Next Time

To any of you who've read some of my previous posts, this might come as quite a surprise. Not that I'm usually drastically unhappy, I just tend to explode on here about bad stuff.

So yeah;
I'm happy.

So yeah;
I'm happy.